Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LX (60th entry)

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure with the abortion pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their identities kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely help them a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Mela, a 23 year-old researcher from  Batanes, Philippines.

We always practice maximum restraint in publishing pictures of POC’s (Products of Conception)  from our patients even if consent is given. The default position is not to publish any pictures at all. However in this case and possibly more in the future, the decision to release the photos online is more for the benefit of women contemplating such a life-changing decision. It is best to do the procedure in the first first 4-7 weeks of pregnancy for lesser emotional and physical strain on the patient. We asked for the consent of the patient and she gave us the nod.  UNLESS CONSENT/PERMISSION IS GIVEN, WE DON’T RELEASE  ANY PHOTOS from our patients

Hi, Alex here is my reflection. Thanks for all your help 🙂
“Maybe you should stop punishing yourself. I mean, what does a good mother do? A good mother does what’s best for her children. And maybe what was best for your children was wiping ’em out before they had to live miserable fucking lives.”

This was the line that forever changed my perception about abortion and maybe even about life. It was from a scene of my favorite series, Orange is the New Black where Bigg Boo talks to an inmate who has had multiple abortions. Watch it here: blob: It made real sense to me, growing up, I always felt like an unplanned child, though my parents claimed that my elder brother was the unplanned one. I am overly emotional most of my life and maybe it’s because I never really felt any emotional support from my parents. Most of the time I had wished that I was never born. So for the women contemplating about having an abortion, decide what’s best for both of you and the fetus. If you are not sure that you can handle parenthood, don’t force yourself to keep it. Financial stability is never enough! Children deserve genuine love and attention. Parenthood is really tough and complicated and you wouldn’t want to blame yourself in the future for not being a good parent just because you weren’t ready when you had children, would you? The world is already full of emotionally damaged kids, so please please please make good decisions! You can read more about my experience/roller coaster of emotions below:



I found out I was pregnant last December and it was the worst time to know as it was a busy time and the merchants for abortion-inducing meds are hard to reach. I most especially hate pharmaceutical drugs. I’m a big “organic” alternative medicine kind of person, and so I’ve tried researching about herbs and tried everything from Dong Quai, Parsley, Aloe Vera, Citrus, to Papaya, but none of them worked for me as I was already on my 4th week as I’ve tried it and it just made me even more nauseated every single day. I also am not too committed to working in routines without the assurance of anything. I’ve already spent a lot of money for herbs and I also got scammed about someone selling “knowledge” about an abortifacient substance on the internet. Beware of someone trying to sell you without telling you what the product is. I can’t believe I fell for her scam, I was really desperate back then and she made an opportunity out of it. I’ve read about Project 486 and considered medicinal abortion would be my second option so I saved a few money to buy the meds just in case. I was on my 7th week when I finally decided to do the medicinal method. I just really wanted to get over it so I spent even the last money I had saved, as I know that having a baby would be far more expensive in the future. So after contacting Project 486, I was immediately scheduled for a consultation and decided that I do it right away. watermarked-60 entryAs the days passed by waiting for the parcel, I was having mixed emotions, scared and happy at the same time. Scared because I can never know what the outcome is, and happy because I know all the pregnancy struggles I was going through will finally be over soon. After receiving the parcel, I decided what day I would start the procedure as it was a three-day process.
Fasting was easy for me as I was already starving myself even before because of depression, and even now after the procedure I am not feeling too hungry and I like the way it feels. The first two days was easy and the last day was the hardest for me, of course. Physical pain was nothing I couldn’t handle but I’m starting to get worried during the first 6 hours as every discharge that came out was from the anus. Don’t worry though, Project 486 will surely take good care of you. In times that I needed reassurance, the emotional support given to me by my consultant was like a comforting hug from a friend, it was only a few words but it was all really what I needed. I wanted to get done right away so I just followed watermarked-26996348_10209925063538527_1524155537_nwhatever my consultant has said so I won’t mess up. After 10 hours, the procedure was successful. It was the worst and best day of my life.

Abortion is a really controversial topic especially in a religious country like the Philippines where people are mostly self-righteous and judgmental. I really hope that one day the stigma about abortion would finally cease so women can have safer access.

Stay strong and good luck with your journey!

-Mela, 23, researcher , Batanes, Philippines


“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LX (60th entry)