PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines L (50th Entry)

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure (Medical Abortion  with Abortion Pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their personal data kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely benefit them  a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  The story submitted are published as they are — no revisions, no corrections (typo and all) except for some words or phrases that may compromise the patient’s privacy . Here’s one reflection from Sia, a 24 year-old marketing officer from Nueva Viscaya 

“Take Hold of Your Future”

-“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you?”

That line is the last part of Sir Alex’s email. Nung una kong nareceive yung email that particular statement becomes a big question to me. Ano ba ang pipiliin ko? I will take hold of my future? or The future will take hold me?

Sa totoo lang sobrang mahal ko yung boyfriend ko. Actually gusto na nyang mag settle kami. He wants to marry me but I’m always rejecting him. Yes! The big problem is in me. Hindi pa ako ready to build my own family. Una, ang dami ko kasing priorities sa buhay. I’m the eldest child, dalawang college students ang pinag-aaral ko. Yung isa graduating but sadly she’s in trouble with her grades, according to her “years” daw ang extension nya and the other one is in his first year of college. Napakalaking responsibilidad kasi my father was still not recover from his stroke and si mama hindi din pwede mag work dahil highblood din. In short, I’m the breadwinner in our family. Ako lahat! Sa akin lahat! I have to be a superwoman para buhayin ang pamilya ko.

I have a stable job kaya nakakaya kong itaguyod ang pamilya ko but sadly I’m not happy with my job. Siguro isa yan sa mga dahilang nagtulak sa akin. Naaalala ko yung sinabi sa akin ng lola ko na “hindi lang sweldo or the money itself ang dapat i consider sa trabaho”…dati I disagree with her kasi I’m always thinking of big salary but I realize na totoo… Oo kahit stable at malaki ang sweldo ko, hindi naman ako masaya. I want change my carreer, yan ang totoo.

I want to get out of here. Siguro dahil sobra akong naiistress sa nature ng work ko at sa tantya ko sa sarili ko kahit kailan ay hindi ako makaka cope with sa ganung trabaho. I want to change my life, hindi ako kuntento kaya ayoko pang mag settle down. Marami pa akong gustong gawin sa buhay ko. And maybe I can’t blame myself kung bakit ganito ang mentality ko siguro sa mga hirap na na experience ko. Since highschool ako na ang nagpa-aral sa sarili ko until now I’ m the one who make sacrifices for my family.
I want to enjoy life because like I’m always saying I deserve it!

Take care of my future! Yan yung naging desisyon ko and I was very thankful to the team that helps me especially to my consultant. They give strength and guidance for the whole procedure.

YES! I feel so guilty sa ginawa ko but mas importante sa akin ang pamilya ko at ang sarili ko.

-Sia, 24, Nueva Viscaya

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

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PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines L (50th Entry)

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To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure (Medical Abortion  with Abortion Pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their personal data kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely benefit them  a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Ren,  a 25 year-old working professional  from  Cebu,  Philippines

We always practice maximum restraint in publishing pictures of POC’s (Products of Conception)  from our patients even if consent is given. The default position is not to publish any pictures at all. However in this case and possibly more in the future, the decision to release the photos online is more for the benefit of women contemplating such a life-changing decision. It is best to do the procedure in the first first 4-7 weeks of pregnancy for lesser emotional and physical strain on the patient. We asked for the consent of the patient and she gave us the nod.  UNLESS CONSENT/PERMISSION IS GIVEN, WE DON’T RELEASE  ANY PHOTOS from our patients. 


 

31 August 2017

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It’s been a week since I successfully induced my miscarriage. I am a 25 year old working professional with much to expect from life especially since I just landed my dream job abroad. Subjecting myself to anxiety and my body to physical stress and emotional pain made me stronger, and never have I been more confident in my choices than when I decided to terminate the pregnancy early. I wish more women will have access to this opportunity of making an informed choice.

 

Reading the blogs of all these strong women helped me in confirming that the procedure is safe as long as you follow everything Sir John says. There were brief moments when I thought this could all go wrong, but Project 486’s professionalism and genuine concern made me believe that their advocacy is true, and that we should not take it for granted and make the poor decisions again.

 

Here’s how it happened for me:

 

July 3 – first day of last menstrual period

July 9 – sexual intercourse

July 12-17 – estimated fertile window

July 29-Aug 3 – expected first day of menstrual period (cycle is at least 27 days)

  • I record everything on my calendar app. My boyfriend and I are sexually active and we enjoy our sex lives such that we don’t bother with basic contraception (my only regret). I stopped taking pills because I didn’t like how it messed up my hormones.

Aug 10 – took first pregnancy test at 5am: faint positive

  • I spent the first few hours of my watermarked-photo6102889644623505347morning researching about how to induce menstruation. I wish I had done it weeks earlier – if not for my older sister who gave birth a month before. I thought it was just an effect of being around her pregnancy hormones.
  • I came across a blog about natural abortion – Vitamin C overdose, parsley tea/pessary, and hormone supplements. Bought them immediately and decided to terminate the pregnancy.

Aug 11-17 – worst week of my life

  • I overdosed on Vitamin C and consumed 1.5 bottles of Dong Quai.

 

Aug 18 – took second pregnancy test at 7am: faint positive againwatermarked-photo6102889644623505348

 

I emailed Alex of Project 486 and spoke with Sir John that same night.

Sir John couldn’t spend the usual 2-hour consultation so we opted for a 30-min call. Alex sent me all the files to be read. It’s overwhelming at first but Sir John allayed my fears and I immediately decided to push through with it the next weekend. I was already 6.5 weeks pregnant by this time.

 

Aug 22 – made payment for package Bwatermarked-IMG_20170822_153553

  • I prepared and bought the materials needed for the procedure as well as the prescribed foods. The medicines arrived 2 days later.watermarked-IMG_20170824_191950

Aug 24 – Day 1 (Mife day)

4am-4pm: low folate diet

4pm-10pm: fasting

10pm: swallow mife with 1 cup of water, then start fasting again

  • I was nervous about feeling nauseated because Sir John told me I that if I vomit the medicine within 2-3 hours after intake, I’ll have to retrieve it and swallow it again.
  • I suffered from an increase in body temperature, weakness, and abdominal cramps. The pregnancy symptoms are real and they suck.
  • The mife intake is the easiest and also the most important part of the procedure.
  • I wore a sanitary pad in case of discharge or spotting. I didn’t have either in my case.

Aug 25 – Day 2

4am-4pm: low folate diet

4pm-10pm: fasting

10pm: vaginal miso (2 tabs), make sure that you’ve defecated and urinated before then

  • My boyfriend helped me insert the tablet in my vagina. The first one was relatively easy but when he started to insert the second one, he had to be careful not to dislodge the first tablet that was already inside. Sir John suggested a pillow maneuver to help in doing this.
  • It was my first time to wear an adult diaper.
  • After a couple of hours, I was having severe cramps. My temperature was normal but my back and lower abdomen kept hurting. The pain was tolerable if you put hot compress.
  • The bigger problem was my empty stomach due to fasting. I also had a poor appetite doing the low folate diet so I practically didn’t eat anything the whole day. I wish I had eaten more of the prescribed foods to avoid suffering from bile reflux (which I did).

Aug 26 – Day 3

2am: buccal miso (2 tabs) for 90 minutes

  • I set an alarm for the second set of miso tablets, this time buccally. I was able to sleep for the first 30 minutes but then I kept waking up because of the cramps. Sir John told me to not move even from side to side.
  • At around 2:45pm, I started to feel discharge but my boyfriend was asleep so I couldn’t check right away if it was blood.
  • At 3:30, I was already dehydrated and asked Sir John if I could drink water upon swallowing the miso. He said I couldn’t. I started bleeding a few minutes later.
  • Before 5am (1 hour before the last miso intake), I passed a big clot on my diaper and when my boyfriend changed it, he said it might be the gestational sac. My boyfriend cleaned it and we took a picture to send to Alex. I immediately informed Sir John so he modified my schedule – I could start eating normal food again. By this time, I was just focused on standing up, drinking water, and taking pain meds for the cramps.
  • At 5:30, I passed the rest of the POCs in the bathroom. By this time, I was almost sure that the termination was a success but I still had to send all documentation to Alex and wait for their confirmation and further instructions.

7:30am: Sir John confirmed that I was officially NOT pregnant.

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I felt nothing but relief. The past weeks leading to the procedure took a toll on my physical and emotional well-being that I was just glad it was over. Unlike the other women who wrote their reflections on this blog, I didn’t feel compelled to say sorry to my “baby”. Sir John said it was because the embryo (at less than 8 weeks, it will be as big as two 5 peso coins side by side) is still basically a lump of flesh that formed inside me. What helped me move on faster was the knowledge that my boyfriend and I are both not ready for a baby. It’s insane how one act can potentially change your future, but after my safe abortion, I realized that it’s more tragic to not be given a choice.

 

If I were to give an advice to the women considering abortion in the Philippines, I would tell you to mentally prepare for the procedure. What’s your motivation? What will you do differently after successfully terminating your pregnancy? How will your outlook change with regards to yourself, your partner, and others?

 

I was deeply comforted by the thought that the soul of our babies already exist. When we conceive, their soul enters our body and becomes the embryo, the fetus, the baby. It is possible that the baby you could have had when you opted for a medical abortion will still be the baby you will give birth to when you are finally ready. It’s also possible that he/she may never come back. Nevertheless, your baby would be proud that you have chosen yourself during the time that really mattered. Babies are an unselfish bunch. Lastly, we’re also only human. We make mistakes and we suffer the consequences, but we are in control of how we live our life and move on after learning our lesson.

 

Thank you so much to Project 486, Sir John and Alex. I know you are putting yourselves at risk for all Filipinas who want access to safe abortion. I wish more women knew about your services and the comfort you bring to all of us patients.

  • Ren, 25, Cebu, Philippines

 

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

“Getting the right information is winning half the battle.”

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PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XLIX

PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XLVIII

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure (Medical Abortion  with Abortion Pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their personal data kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely benefit them  a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Erine, a 23 year-old aspiring flight attendant from   Angeles City,  Pampanga Philippines

 

MY STORY

Hi. My name is Erine. I am 23. I just resigned from my job and I am in my last semester of training for being a Cabin Crew in my dream airline. How will I start my story? Well. Here it goes.

I was drunk. I was drunk because of too many problems. I was stressed because of the training of being a Cabin Crew. It was so hard that I almost quit. My mom doesn’t want me to be a Cabin Crew because it’s too risky daw. (Nerbosya mommy ko) But I went anyway. While doing the 3-month training, my boyfriend broke up with me kase wala na daw ako time sa kanya because of the training. Too many problems so for the first time in my life, I went to a bar with couple of friends. Gays, guys and girls. And honestly, it felt good. Too good that I really got drunk. Then it happened. One of my friends got me pregnant. And yes, that was the first time I had s*x. And that first time got me pregnant by someone who is not even my boyfriend.

At first, I didn’t think na “Ahh baka buntis ako kaya late period ko.” It’s because it always comes as a surprise. Minsan, 1st week or minsan 2nd week of the month. Tsaka sabi ko sa sarili ko, “No way!” First time ko lang nagawa yun tas nabuntis na ko agad? But yes, accidents really happen. August 16 na wala pa din. I can’t accept the probability na baka buntis ako kaya I didn’t take any test. But gosh, Aug 22 na wala pa din. That is the time na I decided to face it. I bought 2 Pregnancy Test and there, 2 lines meaning positive. The second line is quite blurred and unclear so I took the test again and it showed the same result. I googled it hoping that it might be negative but I was wrong. It is still a positive result as long as it shows two lines. That’s according to Mr. Google. Hehe. I cried and I felt fear. Ang dami na agad pumasok sa isip ko. Pano yung pagiging FA ko. 1 month na lang graduate na ko and lilipad na sa iba’t ibang bansa. Masasayang lahat ng hirap at pagod ko. Plus my mom. She would be dissapointed, I know. I blamed myself for everything. For going to a bar, for being drunk and for sleeping with my friend. I didn’t tell him that he got me pregnant. I didn’t want to. I knew that moment that I don’t want to keep the baby because she/he doesn’t deserve a mother like me. I can’t even take care of myself. How would I take care of a child? Buti sana kung boyfriend ko yung nakabuntis sakin.

That day, I didn’t attend my training. Sabi ko may dysmenorrhea ako. Di pwede because that day, swimming and on water precautions ang training. I researched everything on how to take this little angel out of my body. Name it. Vitamin C, Dong Quai Capsule etc. I tried everything but I failed. One week after trying herbal meds, I discovered Project 486. They seemed trustworthy since they have so many successful reflections. So I did contact them.

Aug 24. I emailed them. The next day, they replied. They’re quick as long as you will provide the details they need. Of course, they need to be sure too.

Aug 26. I had a phone call appointment with what they call John. Sir John is so nice that he explained everything without even me asking first. He answered some of my questions and you can hear that he is a pro. He knows what he’s doing. I also like their process. Emailing Sir Alex and texting Sir John at the same time. They use codes to make the conversation easier and faster.

Aug 27. I paid for the meds right away. The next day, they delivered it in my preffered LBC branch. That day was also the first day of my procedure.

Aug 29-Midnight. Took a pill and felt dizzy early in the morning. Fasting was really really hard. I am that kind of person who drinks lots of water so it was really a struggle for me.

Aug 30. I insert two tablets in my V and fasted. That same day, I took 4 tablets bucally. I did almost everything by myself. My cousin was with me but she just assisted me handling me over the things I need. She bought everything. I am really thankful for her. Cramps were painful but you can tolerate it.

At around 2pm of the same day, I really need to pee so I did. And there! Too many blood, blood clots and tissues were in my diaper. Took a picture of this distinguished blood clot and sent it to Project 486 for assessment. I took another photo since it’s not clear daw. Right after that, I drunk 2 Yakult and ate some boiled chicken breast. It really felt bad to be hungry. Haha.

Still, Aug 30-9pm, I was allowed to eat normal food. Yeeesss! But I was still worried because the 2nd blood clot (it maybe the embryo or the placenta) didn’t come out yet. I asked Sir Alex but he told me not to worry about it; that I was doing great. Nagworry lang ako kase sa mga nabasa ko, after 2 hrs, sunod na agad yung next blood clot eh. Hehe.

Still Aug 30- 11:45PM. I decided to go to sleep and just let blood flow in my diaper. I was a bit worried because I thought, I’m not yet done with the procedure. (Still waiting for something to come out) But right after I texted Sir Alex that I would go to sleep, he texted me that the procedure was done and it was a SUCCESS.  He told me to take painkillers and antibiotics for the coming days. He gave some reminders about the continous bleeding and to continue updating them about my healing.

Phew! I am not proud of what I did but I learned my lesson indeed. Girls, don’t get too drunk and don’t get too carried away by your problems because it might lead to another problem like unwanted pregnancy. It will cost a life of a little angel. Don’t do things na idadagdag nyo sa listahan ng ‘regrets’ nyo. (Ako kase, pinagsisihan ko na I lost my virginity that cost a life.) And if you ever caught in a situation like this, hope not, but just in case, go to the right people and consultants like Project 486.

I personally thank Project 486 team for not leaving me thru the whole process. Because of you, I can continue my training and in a month, be a Flight Attendant. Maraming Salamat po!

Erine, 23, (soon to be)   Airline Cabin crew, Angeles City, Philippines

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon


PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XLVIII