PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XLIII

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure (Medical Abortion  with Abortion Pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their personal data kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely benefit them  a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from May,  a 21-year old  secretary  from  Camarines Sur,  Philippines

 

Hi Sir. This is my story. Sorry if it’s late. Di ko lang matuloy.tuloy yung kwento when I first composed it. I focused myself sa work muna, ngayon ko lang po natapos. Thank you.

 

Hi. My name is May(not my real name), 21 years old. Nung di na ko nagkakaron ng ilang weeks, dun na ko kinutuban na may mali na sakin kasi alam ko regular mens ko. Sobrang paranoid na ko. Nagsearch sa net ng signs and symptoms or what to do to let mens start.. things like that. Inilayo ko ang isip ko sa idea na maaring buntis ako. Pero as days went by, di na talaga ako mapakali kaya nagsabi na ko sa bf ko na bumili na ng PT para malaman na nga. Unang try ng PT: FAILED(first time ko gumamit nun,di ko masyadong nabasa yung instructions)kaya nagsabi ulit ako na bili ulit. A day after, dun ko na nalaman. Nung pagkakita ko na may dalawang red na lines, dun na ko kinabahan nang sobra. Di ako makapaniwala na buntis nga ako.
Pumasok ako sa work na parang wala sa sarili. Naisip ko kaagd na di pwedeng ituloy, di pwede kasi wala sa plano. Kawawa lang sya. Dami ko pa gusto gawin sa buhay ko, di kasama sa plano ko yun pero aminado ako na mali ang naisip ko. Nagsearch ulit ako ng ways on how to get rid of the baby. For sure, halos lahat ng nagshare dito nabasa rin yung blog na parsley at vitamin c. Dun ko nakuha sa kanya yung info kung saan at kanino kukunin. Nakabili na ko ng vit.C yung kulang nalang is yung Dong Quai. Di ko natuloy yung ganung plano kasi natakot ako. Sobrang stressed na ko nung time na yun kasi bago palang ako sa work, marami kaming prob sa pamilya, gusto ko pa tulungan family ko, tapos pag nalaman nila na buntis ako, for sure di maganda kalalabasan. Minessage ko yung blogger at asked her kung may ibang ways pa. Good thing, after ilang days nagreply sya. That’s when I knw about project 486. I dont know, nahihiya na ko kay Lord na magpray kasi mali ginagawa ko pero sa kanya pa rin ako humingi ng tulong at will nya pa rin lahat. Nung nag email ako sa project 486, sobrang thankful ko nung nagreply naman agad. Sobrang hopeless ko na kasi kasi too late na. May mga nakakahalata na na stressed ako, nagsusuka, nagkasakit. Unang message ko palang kay sir sure na ko na makakatulong sila. Siguro dahil nirecommend sila or dahil sobrang eager ko lang na matapos na prob ko. Nabuhayan ako ng loob nung nagsimula na kong magmessage at mag open up ng situation ko. Merong phone consultation. Sobrang natanggal lahat ng stress ko nung nalaman kong may tutulong sakin. Tinanong ko lahat ng pwedeng itanong regarding sa procedure. Sinunod ko lahat ng pinagawa ni sir na procedures. Sobrang busy ko sa work, sinisingit ko lang ang pag open ng emails. Patago lahat, pagsearch ng mga pwede pang gawin. Na.late ako bago nakareply sa ibang mga pinapagawa ni sir. Kasi conflict sa work, kulang sa budget at tsaka pinag isipan ko lahat. Di ko na iddetailed lahat ng pinagdaanan ko pero alam ko lang e sobrang thankful ako sa mga taong part ng Project 486.
Takot ako sa pwedeng mangyari saken while the doing rhe procedure, binili ko lahat ng kailangan at paulit.ulit kong binasa yung mga instructions, lahat pinrint ko. Nung dumating na yung araw na nakasked sakin, hirap ako sa pag low folate diet, nasusuka ako sa mga recommended food. I took the first tab midnight nung low folate diet day.Medyo okay pa, wala akong naramdaman na kahit ano, normal lang. Pangalawang araw, sinakto ko na walang pasok,kaya pahinga lang ako sa bahay, dun na ko nag.antay sa mga mangyayari.Lagi akong nasusuka, natakot ako na pag iinom ako ng gamot is masusuka ko lang e sabi kailangan inumin ulit pag nasuka kaya ina.update ko pa rin si sir pag nasuka ako. Sinabihan ako ni sir na iinsert yung 4 tabs for vaginal miso and yung 2 tabs is for buccal miso.Naawa na yung kasama ko dahil nawalan na rin ako ng gana kumain. Higa, tulog, konting tayo lang ginawa ko ng apat na araw. Pero habang nag aantay ng epekto ng gamot, bigla nalang may lumabas na liquid saken, ilang hours din pag antay, nakakapagod, nakakangalay humiga lang at walang magawa. Inaupdate ko si sir sa mga nangyayari aat sabi nya good sign daw yun. Antay pa ko ulit ng ilang oras, sumakit yung puson ko, parang times two ng sakit pag meron, kaya naghot.compress ako. Buti nalang at di ako iniwan ng bf ko sa decisions ko. Inalagaan nya ko at sinamahan sa lahat. I know okay lang sa kanya na ituloy yung pagbubuntis ko, pero sinupport nya lang ako nung sinabi ko lahat sa kanya ang thoughts ko. Sobrang bilis lang lahat, effective yung gamot. After nun, nafeel kong nadudumi ako, e kaso di pa pwedeng tumayo, at ayaw ko dumumi sa diaper, tinanong ko si sir kung pwede na tumayo though di pa yung tamang oras, di pa, nung pagtext ko ng ganun, biglang mag lumabas na blood clot sakin, kala ko, yun na yun. Kaya nagdecide na ko na magcr. Pagdating ko sa cr, hinubad ko lang yung diaper tapos nkaramdam ako na may lalabas na, umupo nalang ako and then yun na, nagulat ako kasi si baby na yung lumaba kasama blood clots, di ako makapaniwala.Ayoko syang hawakan kasi naawa din ako. Nakita din ng bf ko yun, sabi nya kamukha namin pareho.😁 Di pa sya totally nadetached sakin kaya tinanong ko si sir kung ano gagawin. Tapos nun, documentation time na para maverify ni sir yung situation ko.That time, alam ko okay na nung lumabas sya. Naging okay na ko. Akala ko talaga di na magiging successful kasi pang third – fourth month ko na. Pero naniniwala pa rin ako sa mga sinasabi na sir. Wag daw magpaistress kasi lalo kakapit. Kumain ng recommended food lang, bawal yung bawal. Thank you so much Project 486! Sana marami pa kayong matulungan na pro choice women out there. I know marami pang may gantong situation right now. To those who are reading it right now, I know in the first place, mahihirapan kayong magtiwala if legit yung group nila since di naman natin sila kilala in person, I knw the feeling po, pero totoo po sila, they helped me in everything. If you think na need nyo na talaga ng help, Im sure tutulungan kayo nila Sir.

Now, Im starting my life with positivity. Laban lang ulit. I will make sure na di ako mapupunta sa ganung situation. I will be very careful this time. I love my bf but I love my fam and self too and I will love myself more this time to keep myself be reminded that I should not do things not according to His will. Nagkamali lang pero di ibig sabihin nun na mali na lahat sa life ko. Lessons indeed! Again, THANK YOU SO MUCH Project 486!

May, 21 , Camarines Sur

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

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PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XLIII

 

 

 

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PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XXXXII

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure (Medical Abortion  with Abortion Pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their personal data kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely benefit them  a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Dewie,  a 26-year old Technical Support agent from Ilocos Sur,  Philippines

Summary:

April 09 : LMP

May 15 : Positive PT

May 18 – 23 : Took Vit.C + Parsley + Dong-quai (Failed)

June 2: Phone Consultation with Sir John

June 3 : Transviginal Ultrasound

June 5 : Picked-up the parcel for the procedure

June 8-10 : Mife and Miso Procedure

 

 

I am 26, skinny and sickly woman. I always have dysmenorrhea each and every time I have my period. My menstrual cycle is also irregular.

 

I was waiting for my period to come but instead of blood only brown discharge came out. I got a little worried so I researched what it means, and yep I learned that I could be pregnant. I still tried to wait for a few days but no menstruation. Then I started to feel nauseated and sleepy so I decided to take a pregnancy test and boom! Two clear lines showed. I felt weaken and told myself this can’t be happening. I showed the PT to my partner and we talked, He just told me that whatever my decision is He will support me. I am not ready yet for this and we still both supporting our family.
Again we searched over the internet on how to induce miscarriage.  We learned about the Herbal induced miscarriage so I tried it. I took Vitamin C, Parsley and Dong-qui for 6 days, I had few bleedings but nothing came out.  My morning sickness got worst, I felt nauseated the whole day.

Since nothing happened we search again for Plan B, We texted a number we got in the internet to order for Cytotec, but instead of giving us the medicine she offered us for a D&C procedure. She said that the procedure will only last a few minutes and it is painless.  We decided to grab her offer since I am already desperate.  On the day we are supposed to be meeting, she said that her helper will fetch us. While on our way to the meet up place the helper told us that I couldn’t bring a companion on the location where the procedure will happen because that is their protocol.  I got worried and afraid because I’ll be alone. We are already at the meet up place and waiting for the helper, since the helper mentioned the name of the (backyard) abortionist, my boyfriend  tried to searched for it  and to our surprise, there’s a lot of bad and horrible review about her. My boyfriend and I immediately left and blocked their numbers.

 

When we got home, I was so thankful that we were not able to meet them but are also already losing hope. But when my boyfriend checked his email, He found a message on his spam folder about the Project 486. The message came from the girl where we got details about herbal infused miscarriage.

 

We immediately sent an email to Project 486 seeking for help and we received a swift reply from Sir Alex. We sent all the details they were asking for which they need for their assessment. And then I was scheduled for a consultation through phone call. I talked to Sir John and He explained everything to me, he also answered all my questions. Just by talking to him all my doubts were erased because he seems to know everything about the procedure and he sounded very professional and is very kind. He also suggests that I should have TVS just to be sure because there’s a history of ectopic pregnancy in my family although it is not hereditary.

 

I sent the result of my TVS to Sir Alex. Sir John confirmed that it is intrauterine and I can proceed to the procedure.  We immediately sent our payment for the package we availed and on that same day they were able to process our order, they gave us the tracking no. Then we picked up the package on the day it arrived and started the procedure after a few days.  On the 2ndday of the procedure we checked-in in a hotel for more convenience.

 

Details of Procedure:

 

Thursday:

6am – 6pm Low folate diet

I only ate apples and plain oatmeal the whole time. It was so hard for me because I always feel   like I’m about to vomit.

6PM- 11:59 PM – Fasting. I slept early so I won’t feel hungry and nauseated.

 

Friday:

12 AM – I took Mife tablet with 1 cup of water.

12 AM – 6AM – Fasting

6AM – 11:59 PM – Low folate diet.

The whole day I only ate apple, boiled potatoes, raisins and peaches. I make sure I only eat small amount because I don’t want to make any mistake.

 

Saturday:

5:30 AM – I woke up early to defecate, urinate and take a full bath.

6 AM – Insertion of Miso on V.

I lay in bed and with the help of my partner, inserted and rubbed the 2 Miso tablet.

I put pillow under my thigh area just to be sure that tablets won’t slip out.

10 AM   – I took the Miso tablet bucally and swallow it after few minutes without water.

I started to feel cramps and pain. I expected to feel worst pain but to my surprise the pain is tolerable.  After few hours I can no longer tolerate the urge to defecate. I went to the comfort room to defecate and when I checked my diaper there’s a lot of blood clots.

2 PM – I took another set of Miso tablet bucally.

I felt a more severe pain but still tolerable. When I felt that something is coming out again. I tried to stand and then it fell. I went to the comfort room to check for it, I saw the POC.  We sent the documentation to Sir John. After he saw it he advised that they will assess it first and he also said that fasting and low folate diet is over. I can already eat regular meal / rice meals.

 

 

After I read the message from Sir John that the procedure is a success, tears run down my face. I felt emotional and relived.  It was the lowest point of my life that I never imagined happening to me.

 

I was really worried at first because I’m very sickly; I thought I’m too weak for the procedure. But then my worst expectation didn’t happen. The pain was tolerable. I didn’t felt any chills which I expect to happen.  After the procedure, I felt so emotional and sad but at the same time I felt thankful that everything is over and nothing bad happened to me.

 

I promised to myself that this will be the first and the last time it will ever happen. I didn’t attach myself too much on the life inside me because I know it will only hurt and break me.

 

“I am sorry for what I did; I know that I can never get you back. I promise that in the next chapter of my life I will make everything right. I will do everything to make things right.”

 

Sir John, Sir Alex and the whole team,

Thank you for guiding us for the whole procedure. Thank you for everything.

 

To all woman who is in this same situation, this is not an encouragement but if you decided to go through with the procedure, don’t hesitate to seek help with Project 486. They will offer help and guide you throughout the whole procedure. They will also guide you on how to recover once the procedure is over.

 

-Dewie, 26, Ilocos Sur

 

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon


PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XXXXII

 

PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XLI

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure (Medical Abortion  with Abortion Pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their personal data kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely benefit them  a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Eriel,  a 20-year old encoder from Parañaque City, Philippines

 

Hi, Eriel Here (not my real name) i just want to share my experience, though, I really don’t want share it because for me it is the most HORRIBLE, UNFORGIVABLE, MERCILESS and SELFISH decision i made. Ayoko mang balikan o isipin man lang pero dumating ako sa punto na kailangan kung gawin to. I must share my experience hoping na makatulong ito sa pag momove.on ko.

 

I had a “not so complicated relationship” for 2 years at sa 2years na yan confident ako na walang mabubuo kasi palagi kaming safe. Hindi pa kasi ako handa na magbuntis at marami pa akong plano sa buhay pero hindi lingid sa kaalaman ko na gusto na rin ng partner ko na magkaanak at magpakasal na. Pero kahit ganun nirespeto niya ang gusto ko UNTIL dumating ang girlfriend ng kaibigan niya at buntis. Siguro dahil sa ingit he stop using condom at hinayaan ko lang ito sa pag aakalang HANDA NA AKO.

 

First week of May alam kung theres something going on inside me. Nag PT agad ako and there it is CONFIRM i’m pregnant. hindi ko alam ang gagawain ko. Ang word na HANDA NA AKO ay bigla nalang naglaho. “Hindi pa pwede at ayoko ko pa” yan ang paulit ulit na lumalabas sa bibig ko. Kahit alam kung matatanggap naman ito ng parents ko pero alam kung kung hindi ko kakayanin ang sasabihin ng mga kabitbahay at sa ibang nakakakilala sa akin. Nag desisyon ako na ipalaglag ang bata kahit againts dito ang boyfriend ko.

 

The following days pumayag na rin ang boyfriend ko sa gusto kung gawin. I started taking cortal with coke but after 3working days wala parin. So I started researching on to how to abort a baby naturally dun ko nabasa yung about sa herbs. Drinking Tea and taking Vitamin C was so stressful. Oras- oras dapat inumin halos mahilo na ako at feeling ko na overdose na ako but after a week nagdugo ako pero konti lang. Ang saya ko pero nawala ang sayang yun ng hindi na nasundan ang pagdugo. Mas na stress ako nung na time na yun dagdag pa ang paulit-ulit na tanong ng mga kakilala ko kung buntis ba ako at syempre todo deny. Natapos ang tanong nila nung nagpa as if akong dinatnan na ako buti nalang may talent ako sa acting kaya napaniwala ko sila. Sa sobrang stress kaya mas tinodo ko pa ang pa research at timing naman dahil nag reply ang isang blogger sa email ko at dun ko nalaman ang tungkol sa PROJECT 486. Agad akong nag email sa kanila and luckily nag reply agad si sir Alex. I gave all the info na kailangan ng team then after that agad naman akong pinasa ni sir Alex kay Sir John as my consultant. On the following day i had my phone consultation with sir John. Nung una aaminin ko kinakabahan ako habang kausap ko sir John pero nawala ang kabang yun ng paunti- unti. Sir John is not just a consultant but he was also a Doctor to me. He answered and explain everything. Sir John was really a big help, honestly during the process at first natakot ako but sir John was there all the time. He keeps on reminding me to relax, i can do it, be strong and be stress free. Dahil na rin kay sir John at sir Alex the whole process was sucessful.

 

Super thank you po Sir Alex at Sir John without the both of you baka pinoproblema ko pa rin to or worst may mas masama pang mangyari sa akin. To my baby, no words can express how sorry i am pero sana naintindihan mo si Mama. Hindi sa kinakahiya o ayoko sayo pero hindi pa kasi ako handa para magpakananay sayo. Baby kung asan ka man ngayon gusto malaman mo na mahal na mahal kita hindi man yan kapanipaniwala pero yun yung totoo. Baby i know this is not the best for you pero sa tingin ko mas mabuti na to kesa magdusa ka kasi hindi ko kaya na maibigay sayo ang pangangailangan mo. Im sorry for being selfish. Im sorry for not choosing you. Im sorry for being a bad mother pero Baby mahal na mahal kita at mananatili ka sa puso ko.

 

Sana mapatawad mo si Mama at Papa. We love You Very Much Our Baby Angel.

 

 -Eriel, 20, encoder, Parañaque City

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XLI

PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XL

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure (Medical Abortion  with Abortion Pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their personal data kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely benefit them  a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Jade, a 25-year old office staff from Cebu City, Philippines

Hi! Good day to all of you

I write because I just want to share my experience and how this people have helped me a lot to overcome it.

We actually know that we did an unsafe intercourse and I know that something will come as we expected since it was unsafe. So the time has come that we found out that it is positive. Yes it is positive! But we both decided that we’re not going to continue this result as of many reasons. First is that I have a son who will turn 2 years old of this year and I think it’s not the right time for another one since our income is not that big. We want to give the best for our baby.
Second, when I get pregnant, I have to end my job since my “paglilihi” is so struggle, vomiting and nausea is so heavy that I just want to lie down and rest for everyday, so we are thinking that we will have no income if I end my job, and lastly, if we continue it, who will care my baby since both of us are working? So, we end up searching for somebody who could help us.

So we found someone that who has the same exp. with mine and ask her help. So she try to tell me that I should take dong quai, parsley infusion and take some vit. c a lot.. but sad to say, it didn’t work. So we try to contact her again and offer me a plan B which is a medical abortion.

At first, I’m hesitant to do that, I was afraid since when I read it, it was risky and I don’t know what will be the outcome, I taught it can cause us another problem. I just trust to the person behind this, it was Sir Alex and John who really very strict to do the procedure but very supportive. I see how they really want to help others who have the same problem with mine.

So, when we did the procedure, OMG! Struggle is real, since I always vomit, in my mind I can’t make it.So, I just did my best. It’s really hard for me during the fasting and during miso insertion into vagina since I have to lie down for 8 hours, no water & no food… It’s kinda freaking hard…. After 8 hours of pagtitiis, finally it was successful, the POC came out and finally Sir John and Alex do an assessment and texted me that it was successful.

I hope that we will be responsible enough when time like this.

Thanks to you sir Alex and John for guiding us when we did the procedure. It was a great help.

Jade, 25, office staff, Cebu City

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon


PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XL