PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XXVIII

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure with the abortion pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their personal data kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely help them a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Ness ,  a 39 year old office staff and a  mother of 3 from Bohol,   Philippines.

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Sending you my reflections on valentines day (pls. Edit any personal info)

It was last January 15, 2017 when one of the most difficult decision and situation in my life has finally come to an end.

December 5, 2016, I was expecting my monthly period but it never came. It didnt bother me at first bcoz i thought this was only due to sudden change of my body system due to lack of sleep when my work changed into night shift and the sudden demiss of my father of the previous month. Another week passed and it was still okay. I thought “so what?”, i can bear and raise a child whom i really wanted anyway esp so if this will be a baby girl coz ive got all boys. This will be the product of a love shared with a man not my husband but i loved for more than 3 yrs of my life. We are mature enough and responsible for this though unplanned. And so it goes for another weeks.

January 2017 arrived and a sudden tension at work came together with the news that the much awaited work promotion will be announced early this quarter. Me and my partner will be included to that but i guess not if they’ll found out soon of my situation. There’ll be so much intrigue and worst we could be both dismiss from the service.  Huge complications made us decide to the best of everybody. I wanted to keep the baby i swear but bringing  it up would cost our employment and the future of my children.

Then I searched the web trying to find out how to terminate pregnancy until i came across to someone who referred project 468. I entrust myself to them though im aware of the risk of being scammed. My intuition says to go for it. Its just money compared to the best result it could give. Toughen up all you ladies who were in the same situation. The decision was heart  breaking we both end up into tears. I was just thankful to this team for their help. You see, i do not condone the actions not until you were in the same exact situation. Be patient during the procedure and follow everything they advice and you’ll be just fine.

Lastly, i prayed to all unborn babies. Your parents loved you so much and maybe much more and more but not in this time…. only God knows… my darling lil would be baby, we were sorry for you. We love you.

Thanks again sir john and the rest of project 468.

 

Ness, 39, Bohol

 

 

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon


 

PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XXVIII

 

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PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XXVII

 

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure with the abortion pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their personal data kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely help them a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Shobe ,  a 30 year old Customer Service Representative from Gen. Santos City,  Philippines.
<contact us at  project486.ca@gmail.com>

 

heres my story.

im 30yo btw. and yeah, i should be old enough to keep the baby, but because of my shallow and selfish reason, i decided not to, tho my partner and i are excited to have the baby.

my partner for 4yrs, is a good provider, i cant say hes good at parenting tho and as of the moment hes not financially stable. on the other hand, his 7yr old daughter is a brat, treated like a baby and gets the attention she wants. im afraid if all of a sudden when the baby comes out she my get jealous and dislike the baby. of course i dont want that to happen. i want her to be ready as “ate” and make sure shell love and take care of her soon to be sib. and i was just starting my career and paying back my parents. i want everything to be polished.

and so as soon as i found out im pregnant, i overdosed myself with vit c, after a month took vit c with dong quai. but failed. i googled and found Meann’s blog, emailed her, and she referred me to Alex and John, who have been there before and after the procedure.

im on my 8th week, supposedly my first baby, when i started the procedure, my partner doesnt know about this, not one soul. except for Alex and John.

alone, i did the procedure. by did 7am vaginal miso, 11am buccal miso, by 12nn started the “labor” pain or the contraction. around 1-2pm the contraction is like every 5mins, which i expect it will come out soon. around 3pm, expelled the POC. i had mixed emotions when i saw my baby, buo na siya.

it took me a week battling with my emotions, i cried alot but ive made this choice i need to be strong. i told my partner i had miscarriage, and saw the sadness in his eyes. we burried the baby in a pot and planted a white bonsai bougainvillea, atleast this way i can still see my baby grow.

ladies who are reading this, pls lets make sure there will be no next time. 😭🤧😪

to Alex and John, thank you so much. i hope this will be our first and last meeting.

xo, Shobe 😘

“i may not have carried u in my arms, but i carry u in heart”

 

P.S. just pls dont include the plant when u upload my story. pls thanks

 

 

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

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PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XXVII

PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XXVI

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure with the abortion pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their personal data kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely help them a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from F ,  a 27 year old clerk from Tanay, Rizal ,  Philippines.


1st week of December 2016 expected ko na darating yung mens ko pero ilang days palang delayed yung menstruation ko malakas na pakiramdam ko na buntis ako, pero medyo may konting doubt parin ako kasi yung symptoms pag magkakaroon na ko ng mens is same pala sa symptoms na buntis na ko. Kahit hindi pa ko pa nakakapag PT that time alam kong positive talaga dahil never naman nadedelay yung mens ko. So nag try na ko magresearch about abortion para masolusyunan na namin agad ng maaga. Sabi naman ng boyfriend ko susuportahan daw nya kung ano magiging desisyon ko. We’re not yet ready pa financially and emotionally. I found one blog regarding sa herbal abortion and took it for about a week. Vitamin c overdose, Dong Quia and parsley intake sya. But unfortunately hindi sya tumalab sakin kasi baka nga late na rin ako nakapag simula. May nabanggit yung blogger dun about project 486 nga na baka malaki din daw yung maitulong. So nagsearch ako sa internet and nabasa ko nga yung ibang blogs regarding it. Hindi naman ako nag doubt sakanila kasi mukang mga professionals naman sila according sa mga nabasa ko. 1st week of January 2017 ko na sila tinry icontact dahil sabi ko ayoko muna mag isip masyado bago matapos ang taon. Nagreply naman agad si Sir Alex kung ano yung mga dapat kong gawin. So nag take muna ko ng PT, nakatatlong PT ako dahil laging malabo yung lines then nung pangatlo ayun super linaw na nya. Tapos pagka email ko sakanila nag set si Sir John kung anong oras nya ko icoconsult thru phone. So ayun inexplain nya sakin yung mga dapat kong malaman, medyo complicated yung instructions na sinend thru email kaya medyo napagaan ni Sir John yun nung nakausap at na explain nya na sakin sa phone. Sinend nya rin sakin ung cost ng gamot, para sakin okay lang naman yung price kasi kung talaga namang magiging safe yung abortion e okay lang. Nung nakapag decide na talaga ko dineposit ko na yung payment sa account nya then pina shipped naman nila agad ung meds thru LBC. Feb 01 yung 1st day ko ng procedure, nahirapan lang ako sa low folate diet pero kailangan sundin dahil natatakot ako na baka di umeffect yung gamot. Apple at kape lang yta kinain ko the whole day pero pumayag naman si Sir John na kumain ako ng fries pero konti lang. 11:59 pm ininom ko na ung Mife then on the 2nd day wala naman ako masyadong naramdaman, nahihilo lang ako di ko alam kung dahil sa meds or dahil sa gutom hehe. 3rd day eto yung medyo kinakabahan na talaga ko kasi baka nga masakit etc. Nag check in kami sa hotel ng around 7am, by 8am ginawa na namin yung vaginal miso. 11am na pero wala akong nararamdaman na kahit ano so kinakabahan na ko na baka lumabas yung gamot so lagi ko chinecheck yung diaper ko. Then maya maya may naramdaman ako at ayon nga may konti ng blood, medyo narelieve ako kasi atleast alam kong umeeffect na yung gamot. By 12pm nag bucal miso na ko, after ilang minutes sumasakit na yung puson ko every 10 minutes, pasumpong sumpong sya. Tapos after an hour ayun na feeling ko mapopoop ako so sabi ko sa bf ko tatayo na ko dahil feeling ko may lalabas na, sa sahig ako umire tapos ayun tuloy tuloy na lumabas kasama na ung baby ko. Di ko maexplain mararamdaman ko nun kasi buo na sya. Naaawa ako sa baby ko pero wala kasi akong choice kundi gawin talaga to. Mga 4pm pinayagan na ko kumain at uminom ng tubig. Around 630 pm nung malapit na kami mag check out umihi ako then suddenly may nalaglag na malaki sa bowl tinawag ko agad ung bf ko na mag gloves at kunin yung nalaglag, pagkita ko naisip ko na baka yun na ung placenta. Sinend ko agad kay Sir John yung pictures after nun. Then at 11pm pinagtake nya ulit ako ng bucal miso. Iyak ako ng iyak ng gabi na yun dahil pag nakikita ko yung picture ng baby ko sobrang naaawa talaga ko. Di ko inakala na magagawa ko yung ganong bagay pero sabi nga hindi mo maiintindihan ang isang bagay hanggat hindi ikaw yung nasa sitwasyon na yon. Sorry baby kung ano man ginawa ni mommy sayo. Wala na kong menstrual cramps today, nakapag full bath na rin ako pero sandali lang, okay na yung pakiramdam ko physically pero sobrang naguguilt at nalulungkot pa din ako sa ginawa ko.
Thank you Project 486 especially kay Sir John for guiding me through out the whole process. Trust them guys they will be a very big help to you.
F____, 27
*** sir alex pabago nalang po ng name ko. Thanks
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“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

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PROJECT 486: A Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines XXVI