Medical abortions are safe: study

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//Less than 1% of women getting a medication-induced abortion at Planned Parenthood had a serious side effect or a failed abortion, according to a new study.//

//”This continues to show that medical abortion is a very, very safe option for women,” said Dr. Debra Stulberg, who studies disparities in reproductive health at the University of Chicago and wasn’t involved in the new study. “That’s really the take-home point.”//

//The medication regimen used by Planned Parenthood – and many other abortion providers – is slightly different than the US Food and Drug Administration-approved drug course because it includes lower doses of mifepristone and at-home use of misoprostol.//

http://news.abs-cbn.com/lifestyle/12/21/12/medical-abortions-are-safe-study

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Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LXV (65th entry)

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure with the abortion pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their identities kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely help them a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Lulu, a 23 year old employee and reviewee  from Rizal, Philippines.

We always practice maximum restraint in publishing pictures of POC’s (Products of Conception)  from our patients even if consent is given. The default position is not to publish any pictures at all. However in this case and possibly more in the future, the decision to release the photos online is more for the benefit of women contemplating such a life-changing decision. It is best to do the procedure in the first first 4-7 weeks of pregnancy for lesser emotional and physical strain on the patient. We asked for the consent of the patient and she gave us the nod.  UNLESS CONSENT/PERMISSION IS GIVEN, WE DON’T RELEASE  ANY PHOTOS from our patients

I was 5 days delayed when I realized I was pregnant. Bought a PT and got a positive fainted line on that very day. (Btw. I was uncertain if a faint line means positive or negative since I am not used to this thing, but thanks to my online sisters! hugs) *so, throws PT immediately* *Paniiiiic!*

I was anxious but did not tell anyone about the situation.  I bought mahogany seeds and makabuhay roots in Quiapo in the hope that it may induce menstruation but it didn’t (btw, these herbals taste like hell). I searched on the net and found the blog about parsely and vit C for a self induced A. I had it for 2 days but unfortunately, it still did not work for me. I was so desperate about my situation. I felt so helpless.

But I was so decided so I did not give up. There’s not a day goes by without me spending time to search for the easiest way out to this problem. Until I found a bunch of Cytotec online sellers. And lo! I was so dismayed. I can sense thru their scheme that they are douchebag scammers. Like, almost 90% of them are scam.

Sad to say, there will be a lot of predators that will take advantage of our situation. So please be extra careful! And know who to trust! Paganahin ang instinct sis, dyan tayo magaling diba.

So going back. Upon realizing that Vit C and Parsely didn’t work for me, I immediately contacted Project 486. I was already 7 days delayed during that time. For a lot of reasons, I told myself I wouldn’t want to keep this longer so I did not at all consider taking other tabs (eg. cortal, dong quai, etc.) since it might just have adverse reaction in my body or maybe I would only waste a bunch of money and not get any result from it. I am already decided to do the Plan B since it has been proved to be 99% effective. So mas makakamura ako kapag Plan B na agad at wala ng keme keme! Saka, tumatakbo din ang oras kaya dapat kumilos na agad.

So as per protocol, Sir Alex asked me to send him a pic of the PT. I bought a new one, and tried it once again. Crossing my fingers, hoping and praying it will show a single line… but this time, it showed a stronger red double lines!!!

So, yeah. Confirmed. Positive.

I was then subjected to a phone consultation with Sir John which lasted for 2 hours. Everything was explained thoroughly. And you know what? Speaking to Sir John was beyond therapeutical, I felt a whole lot relieved though I have not yet started the procedure. Hehehe. Felt like Sir John was a gynecologist and a psychologist all at once!

Later that night, I told my bf about the delay of my menstruation. I didn’t tell him about the PT yet. I just told him, “I’m a week delayed now… What if I’m pregnant?” He answered me, “I’m gonna marry you then as soon as possible. Will you marry me?” I punched him straight in the face as I was thinking he ain’t taking things seriously. Like, hello! This is a very serious matter for me!

The next day, he asked me to take the pregnancy test so we can  confirm it. I refused as I already know what the result will be. Then I asked him once again, “What if I’m really pregnant?” He answered, “We’ll have you checked so we can take care of your health and the baby’s.” “Seriously?! I’m not keeping this. I have a lot of dreams to achieve, I’m definitely not keeping this.” I got mad, I was so emotional and I started crying… until I already told him the truth. Both of us ended up crying. He was persistent that we should see a gynecologist. He wants me and the baby to be checked first. He wants to see the baby’s ultrasound. But I did not let it happen. I don’t want my decision be altered after seeing a tiny bump inside me.

We spent the entire night talking about it. I explained him everything and how safe the procedure will be. I also told him how firm I was to push through with my decision with or without his approval. So for the sake of my safety, he’s now giving his permission! As I continued talking, he was already crying real hard while kissing my tummy, he even played the song ‘baby shark’ and ‘twinkle twinkle little star’ and placed the speaker close to my tummy so the baby can hear it clearly daw bago sya mawala. He even took selfie with my tummy. (Kainis! Sobrang kinokonsensya ako. Hahaha BUT HEY GIRLS, DON’T FALL FOR THIS! IT’S A TRAAAAAAP! ) Haayst. I don’t know why it’s easier for boys to say to keep the baby even if they, themselves, aren’t even ready. But on the other hands, I realized how lucky I am to have him as the father of my baby ❤ So yeah, before we slept I felt sorry for my bf as I can’t be the woman he thought I could be. Moreso, I felt sorry for the little angel, I can’t keep you yet as I’m still on the process of establishing myself to give you/your future siblings the best possible life I can give.

I was already 12 days delayed when I received the parcel. Started the procedure watermarked-01 pay Eimmediately on the 13th day.watermarked-02 meds

1st day: Mife intake- felt nothing
2nd day: Fasting- tolerable since I have been practicing a 1,500-calorie diet since then. My only struggle was the water! I used to drink 2 liters of water a day, thus , the absence of water for 6 hours is hell lot of a struggle for me. I felt dehydrated. My lips were starting to peel off (lip-cracks) >.<
3rd day: Miso insert- just a normal menstrual cramps on the second hour, cramps got worse as time goes by (but still tolerable for me). Started to feel liquid running through my pad. Maintained the pillow maneuver.

Miso buccal (4 hrs after the insert)- the tab tasted nothing. My only struggle here was on how to swallow the tab without water. Like, I’m terribly dehydrated. My mouth’s terrible dried, my lips are cracked. I tried my best to swallow it but I only ended up melting it in my tongue, until I was able to swallow it completely.

Sidenote: Thanks to my boyfriend for accompanying and monitoring me all throughout.

I obediently followed the time schedule and when it was about time to get up to

watermarked-20180305_074029change my pad, there was nothing. Only a brownish blood. When I decided to pee, Bang!!! A whoosh of blood, with the POCs (which was difficult to identify since embryo is very tricky to identify for early pregnancies), came out of my V in no time, without any pain.

And lo behold! I’m back to my normal life. THE AGONY IS OVER! (Real quick, right? That was because I was still on my 5-6 wks and the embryo is still as small as a grain of rice.)

To Sir John and Sir Alex, I just want to give you my warmest hugs and thanks for all your help! Especially to Sir John, thanks for being 24/7 available just to monitor your patients. Tho we know you also have a personal life but still you managed to monitor us anytime of the day, even in your wee hours! Thank you so much.

Project 486 is more than just a business! They are more like a group of passionate prochoice advocates. They are not after the money. They are for the health and safety of every individual, especiall women, to enjoy her fundamental right of choice.

To the lady reading this, I was once on your shoes. I too had doubts and hesitations at first. But if you are still not yet convinced with the feedbacks you read from different ladies here, what else will convince you? Project 486 is worth taking the risk! They will never leave you hanging. Time is of the essence so hurry and don’t keep it any longer so your life will not be put at risk. Don’t be afraid. I made it, you will make it too (that is only if you follow all the instructions) !

Note: It takes bravery to decide on this matter. You are a woman! And you are braver and stronger more than anyone could think of. It can’t be denied that the world is too cruel for us. Please let’s not be cruel against each other. Spread the word and let’s help other sisters bring back the relief they deserve! 😉 *hugsss*

Lulu, 23, employee, Rizal Philippines

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

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Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LXV (65th entry)

Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LXIV (64th entry)

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure with the abortion pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their identities kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely help them a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Teph, a 27 year old office secretary from Batangas, Philippines

We always practice maximum restraint in publishing pictures of POC’s (Products of Conception)  from our patients even if consent is given. The default position is not to publish any pictures at all. However in this case and possibly more in the future, the decision to release the photos online is more for the benefit of women contemplating such a life-changing decision. It is best to do the procedure in the first first 4-7 weeks of pregnancy for lesser emotional and physical strain on the patient. We asked for the consent of the patient and she gave us the nod.  UNLESS CONSENT/PERMISSION IS GIVEN, WE DON’T RELEASE  ANY PHOTOS from our patients

 

Its been a day since i did the procedure. I’m feeling fine, relieved and at peace. Im 26y/o and i feel like my life is just getting started and having a baby is not really in my plan for the next 3 years but it happened so i had to do what has to be done. My boyfriend just came back from abroad two months ago. We haven’t seen each other for two years so we got really excited to each other to the point of giving myself to him without using any conceptive. I was 4 days late from my expected menstruation when i did the test. Faint positive.

I cried a lot but my boyfriend is actually really happy about it and told his mom even if i told him for us to wait for another week to test again. Just to be sure, i told him.

 

I spent that night searching on how can i induce menstraution or miscarriage. Read this blog about herbal method, with vit c and other supplement.I secretly did the routine for 1 week. Took the test again and result is still positive so i proceed with my plan B. I emailed project486 and they replied immediately. Talked to sir john that night for 30mins and made payment the day after tomorrow. All this was hidden from my boyfriend because i know that he wouldn’t understand and would go against it or worst he would leave me if i told him everything. He actually bought 2 pt that day so i can try them and  he can talk to my parents about the situation but i just kept him hanging. Telling him i will do it the next day. But not really. Blah blah

 

The meds arrived on the exact day that i plan to do it. I did everything sir alex and sir john instructed me. Bought everything that is necessary to the procedure.watermarked-01 pay Only ate the foods on their list. Fasted on the right hour. watermarked-02 med

Then came the 3rd day (crucial day). Severe cramps and back pain for hours and very uncomfortable position. Im feeling worried that point because i dont feel anything coming out from my v at all. After 8hrs, i stood up and i felt a lot of blood came out so i watermarked-03 pocimmediately went to the comfort room to check my diaper. I started washing every blood clot, took pictures and send it to sir alex. Waited for hours for their confirmation but sir john instructed me to take the last two miso tablets to make sure. So i did it. 4th day. After careful evaluation sir john finally confirmed that im officially not pregnant. I was so relieved. Pain was worth it. I also told my boyfriend that my period came. I can see how sad and disappointed he was. I hugged him and said that we will have it when the time is right.

 

To project468, thank you so much. Your team is a huge help to all those women like me. To sir alex and mostly to sir john for being with me throughout the procedure, thank you so much. Promise to be really careful next time.

-Teph, 27, office secretary,  Batangas, Philippines

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

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Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LXIV (64th entry)

Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LXIII(63rd entry)

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure with the abortion pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their identities kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely help them a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Flow, a 26 year-old therapist from Manila, Philippines

We always practice maximum restraint in publishing pictures of POC’s (Products of  Conception)  from our patients even if consent is given. The default position is not to publish any pictures at all. However in this case and possibly more in the future, the decision to release the photos online is more for the benefit of women contemplating such a life-changing decision. It is best to do the procedure in the first first 4-7 weeks of pregnancy for lesser emotional and physical strain on the patient. We asked for the consent of the patient and she gave us the nod.  UNLESS CONSENT/PERMISSION IS GIVEN, WE DON’T RELEASE  ANY PHOTOS from our patients

 

It all started last December when it was almost Christmas time. I was very busy at the beginning of the month because of certain projects at work that’s why I did not notice that I missed my period. Furthermore, I was not sure if my last period was on the first week or third week of November. I also started feeling the heaviness of my breasts on the second week which made me think that I will be having my period on the next week because that’s normal for me whenever I am about to have my period. All of these factors made me ignore the fact that I’ve already missed my period. I only started worrying around the 19th-20th of December but I only thought that I was only delayed because of all the stress that I am experiencing at work and the Christmas Buzz. I was already telling my boyfriend about it but he told me that there is nothing to worry about because he is sure that he did not do anything wrong but I was still worried and started to feel scared. I started to search on how to induce my menstruation. I remembered 5 years ago when this happened to me around Christmas time also. My period was also delayed and I searched for the internet and found articles saying that if you are anxious about your period it makes you more delayed. I thought that is what’s happening to me. 5 years ago, my period was also delayed for more than a week and I took one tablet of “cortal” (aspirin) on New Year’s Eve and I got my period the next day. I kept on thinking that this is the same situation that I am just too stressed and anxious. I tried to stay positive and I did not think that I am pregnant! Honestly, I don’t want to think that I am pregnant. So, I tried to ignore it and just waited for my period.

After Christmas, I still did not have my period that is why I searched for ways on how I can induce my period. I read about aspirin again and decided that I will take aspirin to induce my menstruation. I remembered before when my friend told me that it was already hard to purchase “cortal” so I just bought a different brand of aspirin. I took 5 tablets of aspirin for 4 days until New Year’s Eve but I still did not have my period! L I even took parsley infusion with it every 4 hours and Vitamin C. I read the blog about herbal abortion but I did not follow it well. I really just wanted to induce my period because I was in denial and I did not want to think that I am pregnant. Sadly, nothing happened after my intake of aspirin. I decided to stop taking it because I was also scared of the side effects. I also thought that maybe my last period was on the last week of November that’s why it hasn’t come yet. I don’t know, to be honest I was really in denial and I kept on thinking of excuses on why my period got so delayed.

When January started, I was feeling more frustrated and scared. I read the herbal abortion blog again and I decided to message “Sis” and ask about the Dong Quai tablets. I was not fully decided on it because she said that if the herbal procedure wouldn’t work, I should continue with a PLAN B. The plan B is a medical abortion and I thought to myself that I am not pregnant so why will I proceed to this but deep inside I have a fear that what if maybe I am. I should really proceed to the medical abortion. I did not want to think that way. I asked my boyfriend about it and we thought about it really hard. We talked about our future plans and how we will survive if this happens. He asked me if I think that I am pregnant. I did not know what to answer, I said 50-50 but I said that NO, I am not. He said that he did not think that the situation is already serious and he also thought that my anxiety is just making my menstruation delayed. We decided to just induce try the Dong Quai tablets to induce my menstruation. We just thought that maybe I am just really delayed although my period is usually normal and this is the first time that I got delayed for so long. We still tried to think positive and tried to convince ourselves to what we want to believe. L  It was really frustrating everyday but we just tried to continue on with our lives normally but the symptoms of pregnancy started to bother us also. I started to feel nauseous all day. I searched for the side effects of aspirin and nausea is one and thought it might just be an effect of it. I even vomited one morning when I got so hungry. Then, when the Dong Quai tablets arrived, I also started the routine with Vitamin C OVERDOSE and Dong Quai. Honestly, I did not take the parsley infusion again because it tasted too gross for me and it made me want to vomit whenever I drank it. I tried the routine for 7 days but it did not have an effect. This was the turning point where I thought that maybe I should just accept the fact that I might be pregnant and I should stop making excuses and stop denying it. I told my boyfriend that Dong Quai did not have an effect and he told me that my menstruation is DEFINITELY not delayed. I decided that I should accept it and that he’s right, I’ve been feeling nauseous everyday and I’ve also been vomiting almost every morning since I started the Vit. C overdose which is not normal for me.

I messaged Project 486 on the 14th of January and I immediately received a reply. One of the requirements is to submit a photo of the pregnancy test which I haven’t done yet. My boyfriend told me before to do the pregnancy test to stop being anxious but I did not want to because as I said before I believed that I was not pregnant and so I didn’t need it. I was so in denial every time.

That night, I decided to think about it thoroughly, I was on my way home and I thought of ways on how I can tell my parents that I am pregnant. I am working and I have a stable job but my salary is not enough. It’s too low and won’t be able to support a family. My boyfriend is also the same because we have the same job. We also have plans on working abroad and the processing is already ongoing. I contemplated on this and I thought that maybe my family would accept my pregnancy. I thought that maybe I can continue this while waiting for my papers for abroad but then I remembered all those medications that I took. To be honest, I never thought that it will come to this point or maybe that’s what I really wanted to think that I am not pregnant so I am not harming anything inside me but I was wrong. I am really sorry for being so in denial, I was just really scared. I really don’t know what to feel.

The next day, my boyfriend and I went to work and we bought 2 pregnancy tests from Watson’s. It was my first time to use and buy it. I did the test after we had our lunch and I knew deep in my heart that I will see those two lines. watermarked-00 pt (3)We talked about it and we decided that we should message Project 486 for professional advice. He said that we should ask about the effect of the medicines that I took, if it can cause abnormalities or congenital problems to the baby if we decide to continue it. If this will be the case then we decided that we should not continue it. Moreover, we know in ourselves that we are not ready for this that’s why we were so in denial especially me.

I sent the photos of the pregnancy tests to Sir Alex and I received the files that I needed to read and also my consultant’s number. The files were very informative and I’ve read the “reflections” of their past patients which made me really trust them and believe that they really know what they’re doing. That night, I also had the phone consultation with Sir John and I asked him everything that I wanted to ask and he explained everything to me. It was a really informative conversation and I also felt at ease because I felt that he was so professional and he also made the conversation light. Of course, I asked him about the medicines and he told me that the aspirin was really bad especially for me. It really has bad side effects and it was a good thing nothing bad happened to me. He told me that I can continue the pregnancy if I want but if I decide to discontinue it; I should make up my mind as soon as possible because TIME is of the essence. I might already be 10 to 11 weeks pregnant and the medicines are only effective up to the 12th week. After our conversation, he sent to me the fees and other important messages like the time table and the diet. I told my boyfriend about our conversation and that’s when we decided to push through with the procedure.

I paid for the medicines on the 18th of January and received it on the 19th .  The transaction was really fast and hassle free.watermarked-01 pay 22 I told Sir John that I will be starting the procedure on the 20th.watermarked-02 med I went to work on Day 1 and started the low folate diet. It was really hard because I have a very physical job and I tend to feel hungry a lot. I also feel nauseous whenever my stomach is empty and I always had the urge to vomit. I only drank coffee for my breakfast and had fish fillet (with no rice) for lunch. Then I had to do overtime at work so I was not able to eat at 5. It’s okay because Sir John told me to just fast for 6 hours prior the intake of Mifepristone. I ate chicken for dinner at 7pm and that was my last meal for the day. I went home to my family that night. I took Mifepristone at 1:30 and slept afterwards.

On Day 2, I woke up early at around 5:30AM and did not feel anything weird, just a little nauseous like the usual. I left our house and arrived at our apartment at 8:00AM because that’s where we’ll be doing the procedure. I was alone for the whole morning and afternoon and still did the low folate diet. I only watched movies and series for the whole day. Sir John told me to be relaxed and stress free because that’s the key for a successful procedure. Day 2 was really easy because you don’t have to do anything yet. My boyfriend arrived in the evening with all the things needed for the procedure.

Day 3 is the actual procedure itself. I started fasting at 12 MN and woke up at 5:30 to take a full bath. At 6 AM, the 2 misoprostol tablets were insterted by my boyfriend to my V. I did not feel anything after insertion and I asked Sir John if I can sleep and he said that it is much better. He also asked if I am with someone. We did the pillow maneuver and slept. At around, 8 AM, I woke up because I was already starting to feel the cramps on my lower abdomen. It felt like I wanted to urinate and defecate but nothing is coming out. I was also wearing my diapers that time and all I can do was twist and move my legs because I am not allowed to stand up or lie to my side. My boyfriend applied hot compress to my lower abdomen which helped ease the pain a little. It was a very uncomfortable experience and it felt like something is being tugged from your stomach. I can’t really explain the feeling but it was extremely uncomfortable. I took Ibuprofen at 9 AM and felt a little relief and it also felt good to have some water. Few minutes after, I also felt something warm come out and the pain or cramps were gone. I slept again while maintaining the position and pillow maneuver. I had an alarm at 10 AM for the buccal misoprostol. I thought the medicine would taste bitter but to my surprise, it did not have any bitter taste at all. Actually, it didn’t have any taste at all. Unlike the vaginal misoprostol, I did not feel any pain during the 10 AM buccal miso. I was just watching Korean Series the whole time I was lying down and just relaxed. My boyfriend was also with me and just played PS4 beside me. I tried to relax and be stress free. At 2 PM, I took the buccal miso and was able to sit up. Upon standing up, I also felt something warm come out again and I went to the comfort room to check it. I sent the pictures to Sir Alex and Sir John told me that they will check it. They sent me a modified schedule at 4 PM where in I can start to eat normal food. My boyfriend and I decided to eat chicken so we had food delivered. It was rewarding after a tiring day. At 4 PM while I was walking I felt something come out again and it felt like it was a lot. I checked my diaper again and there it was, the POC. I knew then when I saw it that the procedure was successful. I did not show my boyfriend anything that came out from me because he has a weak stomach and he told me that he might vomit if he sees any blood or POC. I took the pictures and sent it to Sir Alex. I felt sad when I saw it because it already has eyes and I did not expect it to be well-developed already.watermarked-03 poc (2) I thought I will just be seeing a lump of blood or something. It was so tiny and I felt really sad because I had to let it go but also I felt relieved because gone are the days were I am feeling scared and nervous all the time. I did not want to look at it much because it made me feel guilty. I promise not to do this again and be more careful so that this won’t happen again. At 9:44 PM, Sir John texted me and told me that although it may be apparent to me, but I was then officially NOT pregnant. He sent me the reminders after the procedure and I asked him about my work because it is really physical.

I really want to express my sincere gratitude to Project 486 (Sir John and Sir Alex). Thank you for all the help. Thank you for giving us professional advice and for giving us the freedom to choose. Thank you because I felt that I was in good hands while doing the procedure and I did not feel that there is something that I should worry about.

I guess, I should not just say that we decided to do the medical abortion because I took medicines that might cause problems although it is a factor. However the fact is, I took the medicines because I kept on denying the fact that I was pregnant and I kept on thinking that I was not because WE WERE NOT READY and this is the whole truth. We do the medical abortion because of UNWANTED PREGNANCIES and because we are not ready for the responsibility, for the baby and for the CHANGES that will happen in our lives because of this. I am really sorry for this and of course I want to ask forgiveness from God. My boyfriend and I plan to go to Vatican someday to ask for forgiveness. Hopefully we will be able to go there but for the mean time, I’ll just say sorry every single day to the Lord and to our angel. My boyfriend and I decided to bury it in a pot and we planted flower seeds on it. It will be a simple reminder of our angel. We also light a candle in the altar every day. These simple gestures remind me of it but I just feel relieved that it is over. I feel guilty but I feel more relieved because I am really not yet ready. I won’t do it again and be more careful next time. Thank you again to Project 486 for everything. Sorry my reflection is too long.

Flow, 26, Therapist, Manila

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

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Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LXIII (63rd entry)

 

Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LXII(62nd entry)

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure with the abortion pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their identities kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely help them a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Yna, a 20 year-old student from Tarlac, Philippines.

We always practice maximum restraint in publishing pictures of POC’s (Products of Conception)  from our patients even if consent is given. The default position is not to publish any pictures at all. However in this case and possibly more in the future, the decision to release the photos online is more for the benefit of women contemplating such a life-changing decision. It is best to do the procedure in the first first 4-7 weeks of pregnancy for lesser emotional and physical strain on the patient. We asked for the consent of the patient and she gave us the nod.  UNLESS CONSENT/PERMISSION IS GIVEN, WE DON’T RELEASE  ANY PHOTOS from our patients

 

My name is Yna, and last January 23, 2018, I took a pregnancy test because I was 7 days late on my regular menstrual cycle. It came out positive. I was doubtful and terrified at the same time so I made my partner buy another 2 pregnancy test so I can be sure.

I took the other two pregnancy test and the result was…………positive AGAIN. This time every possible horrible scenario played out in my mind and that made me horrified.

I started to search for possible solution to my problem: natural abortion. I visited every site that I could find and I came up with Vitamin C, parsley, and dong quai.

So for 2 days, I took 24 tablets of 500 mg vitamin c and parsley infusion. It didn’t work for me. The dong quai medicine is really hard to find and I ordered it on lazada but they never sent us a confirmation that it will come. That is when I lost all hope that I can do this.

Then, my partner showed me this site about project 486, at first I was skeptical because I was depressed by that time (I am practically 5 weeks pregnant by then) but then I started to read the reflection of other women who has experienced their help. That gave me a spark of hope.

I made my partner contact them and he did.

January 26, sir alex scheduled us to have a consultation with sir john.

During our conversation, sir john was very patient with all my questions and he was very detailed in explaining the procedure and the do’s and dont’s and the 6 important things to remember while undergoing the procedure. He was also very persistent on finding the authentic drugs and doing the procedure right and carefully.

After that, sir john and sir alex sent us the procedures on how to pay the medicines. So we paid the fee and waited for the shipment of the medicine.watermarked-watermarked-01 pay 2

January 27, the medicine arrived and I was already on my low folate diet and fasting so I took the mife. And went back to sleep. The morning after, I felt intermittent contractions on my uterus.watermarked-02 med

January 28 I was on low folate diet and fasting.

January 29, this was the hard part of the procedure. I was really glad I had my partner y my side at all times. He helped me with everything and reminded me that we can do this. Sir alex and sir john were really supportive and they took good care of me during the ordeal. They never failed to remind me and instruct me on the process. I am really thankful to them. It hurt a lot and watching the tv series “ friends”  really helped me, especially on the funny episodes. 2 pm after my pillow maneuver was finished, I went to the bathroom and peed on the basin. That’s when I felt the gush of blood flow out and as well as a meatball sized soft thing (It made me laugh because of the feeling when it came out, it went “whoosh”). When I looked at it I saw what resembled a very small liver. My partner gathered it and cleaned it while I lay down because that’s when I felt really tired.

It was sad that I have to do what I did. I know others would call me horrible names but when I think about the things that I have to go through if I keep the baby it would be unfair for his/her to grow up in a world without proper care and love. I couldn’t provide for his/her needs.

Trust project 486. They are the real deal and they care a lot about their clients.

 

-Yna, 20, student , Tarlac

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

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Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LXII (62nd entry)

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Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LXI (61st entry)

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure with the abortion pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their identities kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely help them a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Amy, a 24 year-old M.A. student from Camarines Norte, Philippines.

We always practice maximum restraint in publishing pictures of POC’s (Products of Conception)  from our patients even if consent is given. The default position is not to publish any pictures at all. However in this case and possibly more in the future, the decision to release the photos online is more for the benefit of women contemplating such a life-changing decision. It is best to do the procedure in the first first 4-7 weeks of pregnancy for lesser emotional and physical strain on the patient. We asked for the consent of the patient and she gave us the nod.  UNLESS CONSENT/PERMISSION IS GIVEN, WE DON’T RELEASE  ANY PHOTOS from our patients

 

 

We named our baby SKY…

It was difficult deciding whether we would keep Sky or not. It was tough, we never thought we’d come to this point. We both love children, which is evident in the way we take care of our nephews and nieces, and some kids we barely even know. I and my partner are young professionals. In fact, we’re already at the right age to settle down. But having one of our own at this time would put a halt to our careers. We are both aspiring scientists. We both know we are not yet ready.

So we looked for ways online to induce abortion. It wasn’t good and with no scientific basis. We risked on trying a few such as parsley tea, parsley pessary, and Dong Quai Root capsules. It cost us a lot of time. We had no idea how difficult it was, both physically and emotionally. By then, we were about to end our first trimester and still pregnant.

 

We panicked. A lot. We remembered this PLAN B recommended by someone online. The medical abortion by Project 486. We had our doubts, and who wouldn’t? But we took the risk, since it is the safest method available.

It involved a lot of emails and text messages and phone calls. For us, it made the transaction reliable. The measures they take to let us keep our identity and for them to keep their anonymity made us feel safe. The steps for the procedure were sent to us to be read, and a conversation over the phone for queries and modifications for my health issues were made. The whole process was very straight forward that it became easier in our part.

In our case, we were given Package C1 for 9-12 weeks. We started the low-folate diet on Day 1, took the Mife (the abortion pill) on Day 2, and the Miso tabs on Day 3. The intense pain started right after the vaginal Miso tabs. It felt like my insides were being torn apart. It’s nothing compared to dysmenorrhea or the usual menstrual cramps. If pain levels were scaled with 10 as the highest, its somewhere between 7-9. I could feel my body temp dropping and the chills started.

Four-hours after the buccal Miso, I had the urge to defecate, so I did it on a spittoon (arinola) as advised. I had diarrhea, and then I felt something came out of from my vagina. Something big and whole. It was so sudden I didn’t realize it was already Sky together with its placenta, still intact.

By then, I can’t even bear to look. It was my partner who comforted me. That very moment was so painful, but he remained strong for the both of us. I asked my partner to do the documentation protocol. And then we were told that the process was a success and that we were on the road to full recovery. But we can’t… Maybe never will. It was a tough decision to make and it took a huge toll on us.

We named our baby SKY so wherever we go, He or She is there. No matter how painful it was for us, we do not intend to forget. There is a sense of relief after. I am very fortunate to have my partner by my side. But if you’re alone in this journey, be stronger. I won’t guarantee it to be easy, but it’s going to be.

We are thankful for the service of Project 468. We have a very limited number of options for a safe and successful abortion, and they service they provide is one of them. Do it as soon as possible so you won’t go through our ordeal.

We can’t judge since one case is different from another. We all have our reasons. We just need to be strong and brave enough to endure the consequences.

-Amy, 24, M.A. student, Camarines Norte

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

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Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LXI (61st entry)

Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LX (60th entry)

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure with the abortion pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their identities kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely help them a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  Here’s one reflection from Mela, a 23 year-old researcher from  Batanes, Philippines.

We always practice maximum restraint in publishing pictures of POC’s (Products of Conception)  from our patients even if consent is given. The default position is not to publish any pictures at all. However in this case and possibly more in the future, the decision to release the photos online is more for the benefit of women contemplating such a life-changing decision. It is best to do the procedure in the first first 4-7 weeks of pregnancy for lesser emotional and physical strain on the patient. We asked for the consent of the patient and she gave us the nod.  UNLESS CONSENT/PERMISSION IS GIVEN, WE DON’T RELEASE  ANY PHOTOS from our patients

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Hi, Alex here is my reflection. Thanks for all your help 🙂
 
“Maybe you should stop punishing yourself. I mean, what does a good mother do? A good mother does what’s best for her children. And maybe what was best for your children was wiping ’em out before they had to live miserable fucking lives.”

This was the line that forever changed my perception about abortion and maybe even about life. It was from a scene of my favorite series, Orange is the New Black where Bigg Boo talks to an inmate who has had multiple abortions. Watch it here: blob:https://www.mamamia.com.au/86ad4b2d-5e94-4565-8a50-6a7b20d7ee5e. It made real sense to me, growing up, I always felt like an unplanned child, though my parents claimed that my elder brother was the unplanned one. I am overly emotional most of my life and maybe it’s because I never really felt any emotional support from my parents. Most of the time I had wished that I was never born. So for the women contemplating about having an abortion, decide what’s best for both of you and the fetus. If you are not sure that you can handle parenthood, don’t force yourself to keep it. Financial stability is never enough! Children deserve genuine love and attention. Parenthood is really tough and complicated and you wouldn’t want to blame yourself in the future for not being a good parent just because you weren’t ready when you had children, would you? The world is already full of emotionally damaged kids, so please please please make good decisions! You can read more about my experience/roller coaster of emotions below:

 

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I found out I was pregnant last December and it was the worst time to know as it was a busy time and the merchants for abortion-inducing meds are hard to reach. I most especially hate pharmaceutical drugs. I’m a big “organic” alternative medicine kind of person, and so I’ve tried researching about herbs and tried everything from Dong Quai, Parsley, Aloe Vera, Citrus, to Papaya, but none of them worked for me as I was already on my 4th week as I’ve tried it and it just made me even more nauseated every single day. I also am not too committed to working in routines without the assurance of anything. I’ve already spent a lot of money for herbs and I also got scammed about someone selling “knowledge” about an abortifacient substance on the internet. Beware of someone trying to sell you without telling you what the product is. I can’t believe I fell for her scam, I was really desperate back then and she made an opportunity out of it. I’ve read about Project 486 and considered medicinal abortion would be my second option so I saved a few money to buy the meds just in case. I was on my 7th week when I finally decided to do the medicinal method. I just really wanted to get over it so I spent even the last money I had saved, as I know that having a baby would be far more expensive in the future. So after contacting Project 486, I was immediately scheduled for a consultation and decided that I do it right away. watermarked-60 entryAs the days passed by waiting for the parcel, I was having mixed emotions, scared and happy at the same time. Scared because I can never know what the outcome is, and happy because I know all the pregnancy struggles I was going through will finally be over soon. After receiving the parcel, I decided what day I would start the procedure as it was a three-day process.
Fasting was easy for me as I was already starving myself even before because of depression, and even now after the procedure I am not feeling too hungry and I like the way it feels. The first two days was easy and the last day was the hardest for me, of course. Physical pain was nothing I couldn’t handle but I’m starting to get worried during the first 6 hours as every discharge that came out was from the anus. Don’t worry though, Project 486 will surely take good care of you. In times that I needed reassurance, the emotional support given to me by my consultant was like a comforting hug from a friend, it was only a few words but it was all really what I needed. I wanted to get done right away so I just followed watermarked-26996348_10209925063538527_1524155537_nwhatever my consultant has said so I won’t mess up. After 10 hours, the procedure was successful. It was the worst and best day of my life.

Abortion is a really controversial topic especially in a religious country like the Philippines where people are mostly self-righteous and judgmental. I really hope that one day the stigma about abortion would finally cease so women can have safer access.

Stay strong and good luck with your journey!

-Mela, 23, researcher , Batanes, Philippines

 

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon


Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LX (60th entry)

Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LVIX (59th entry)

To cope with the range of emotions that our patients undergo after the procedure with the abortion pills Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec , we encourage them to make a reflection about their experience and share them with us and the world ( their identities kept confidential).  A  “reflection” will help them unload much of that emotional baggage. This activity will surely help them a lot as they embark on the road to a full recovery  and to a new  beginning.  

Here’s one reflection from N.K.,   a 26 year-old  Med Tech  from  San Jose del Monte City, Bulacan, Philippines.  

Its been 5 days since I did the procedure and I am slowly having normal life again. Its like I was given another shot in life.

My situation is not really different from other girls sending their stories / experience here. From all the emotions they felt when they knew about their pregnancy up to deciding to abort it, I went on it also. But the final decision of aborting the baby is solely my choice. Yes, I am on the right age to start a family, my boyfriend and I have stable jobs and its time to enter new chapter in life but I don’t think that its enough reason for me to continue the pregnancy. I am now in the peak of my career where a lot of opportunities are coming that will really support my family and I know that my parents would be disappointed in me if they knew that I engaged in premarital sex. I was born in a Catholic family, youngest daughter and my family invested so much in me that I cant afford to break their trust.

When my period was delayed, I was still complacent that I am not pregnant since sometimes my menstruation really comes late. But a week came and still no period so I informed my boyfriend about my situation and he said that he will take full responsibility if ever I am really pregnant. The next day I took a PT and came faint watermarked-z1positive, I knew from then on that I cant continue with it so I immediately look for safe ways to end it and I came across this blogger suggesting herbal abortion. I did everything for 8 days and yet only spotting happened to me and she said in her email that I can contact project486 if I failed the herbal way, and so I did. After all the talks, consultation and payment, I started having the medical abortion right away. At first, I was really scared of doing it alone since my boyfriend Is against it but after I talked to him, he voluntarily accompanied me ‘only to make sure I am safe’ (his exact words). The whole procedure is bearable for me since I have someone that I can trust and takes good care of everything so those who planned to do it, a companion is really a must since the procedure can be mentally and emotionally draining. 4pm on the third day, I received a text from Sir John that I am NOT pregnant anymore. They said that there will be a roller coaster of emotions but I just felt relieved that everything is under control now. I know that it is not what He wants but I also know that He gave everyone the free will to let us decide and choose the path we want to take.

To all the staff of project 486, especially Sir John and Sir Alex, I really want to thank you for all the help and support you willingly extended to me and to all the girls that are under the circumstances like mine. Its really good to know that there are people who are open to this kind and helping out to fulfill their choosing. I hope I can extend my help also to other girls by doing this reflection. Thank you again.

-N.K., 26, SJDM, Bulacan , Philippines

 

“Take hold of your future or the future will take hold of you” – P. Dixon

“Getting the right information is winning half the battle.”

“The earlier you do it, the easier and better it would be. The earlier you do it, the smaller the POC’s (products of conception) , the lesser the pain, the lesser the emotionality, the faster  is your recovery.”-Project 486

“If you have the slightest doubt, the slightest hesitance. don’t do it.  If you are not 100% into it, don’t do it… by all means, bring the pregnancy to full term. Parenthood, despite its challenges can be a wonderful thing too.”- Project 486

“The ultimate decision lies with you, the owner of the body. Don’t do it just because you were compelled  by someone”


Patient’s Reflection on Her Medical Abortion Procedure (Abortion Pills: Mifepristone and Misoprostol or Cytotec) in the Philippines LVIX (59th entry)